Today's a bad day.
Nope. Not politics.
I'm talking about real bad... personally bad... real life bad...
I just received an email informing me that a good friend who has been battling cancer is now at hospice.
This guy has a wife... kids... friends... people who love him.
I love him.
I had been under the impression he was battling back. A couple weeks back he announced on his Facebook page that after a set-back he had fought back to where the doctors were happy with "his numbers."
I hadn't heard from him over the past week so I emailed him the other day; earlier today I received a response from a work colleague who was dealing with his emails... and that's how I found out that they don't expect my friend to make it through Thanksgiving.
I'm angry at God. Really angry. I thought we had a deal. I thought that our deal was that He'd screw around with me on anything and everything that wasn't really important... stuff like my career... but that in return I got to keep my loved ones.
I can't believe this is happening.
My buddy Mike Dalaker is my age... maybe a year younger. We attended college together. We dormed together. We ate, drank, listened to music, and sang together. We were tight.
After college... we lost touch.
About a year ago... maybe a year and a half ago... out of the blue... Mike "found" me on Facebook.
We've been chatting - mainly via email - ever since.
Twice since our getting back together I've been up to his neck of the woods (literally... New Hampshire) and at least once he's been down my way (to visit his parents in Long Island)... but due to his treatment schedule we didn't meet up those times. It looks like I'll be regretting that for the rest of my life.
Anyway... I've cried. No doubt I'll cry again. I expect to lose it when his suffering is over and it's posted on Facebook or I'm notified by email.
I don't even know his wife...
I don't know his kids...
I know of them. I know he loved them. I know that they are his strength... his pride and joy.
Mike loves the blog. I'm gonna blog today. I'm gonna do some newsbiting today.
Still... this sucks.
See ya on the other side, buddy.